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https://www.quora.com/Have-you-ever-lost-any-respect-for-someone-instantly/answer/Ziyanda-Venter
Someone replied, "Ziyanda, you are actually experiencing something other rape survivors do too. It's not stupid - it's a reaction to trauma. By having consensual sexual encounters with your rapist, you are creating a reality where you are no longer a victim."
The other thing is, they can orgasm during rape and then their body presumably releases oxytocin which promotes bonding.
Meanwhile other guys are thinking about their love interest, "How do I get this girl to fall in love with me"
As time went on, I contacted my rapist for some weird reason, “Why are you calling him, Zee?”, my roommate would ask me out of concern but the stupid me contacted him anyways. I remember the day he came to apologize to me, he was so sorry. My heart raced and I don't know why, it dawned on me that, I was falling for him!
We later hung out together and had sexual encounters. At times I'd remember the night he had hurt me. I got over it and later got addicted to the thrill of being with him. We had such a strong connection. I forgot all about the time he dragged me across his unmade bed, penetrating me with his fingers violently, his wild, brown eyes looking into mine and him pinning me on his bed while I felt his warm breath on my neck as I begged him not to touch me. I felt numb that night, my tears ran across my face, but I did what I did best ever since I were a a little child, I cried myself to sleep. The thrill of sleeping with him made me feel better about myself. I felt loved. It felt so wrong but I enjoyed the thrill.
I'm now two months pregnant with his baby. I came clean to my fiance and he has now forgiven me and wants to raise the child with me.
I decided to keep the baby because I don't believe in “mistakes”, the baby never hurt anyone, the baby doesn't deserve to be aborted because of my irresponsibility and human race's evil. I mean, when I see him or her, I will think of the man that hurt me but I know that the baby has purpose in this life.
It hurts me so much how I allowed the same guy that hurt me and broke me even more to have my body. To see that part of me. I didn't only strip naked for him but also my soul.
We later hung out together and had sexual encounters. At times I'd remember the night he had hurt me. I got over it and later got addicted to the thrill of being with him. We had such a strong connection. I forgot all about the time he dragged me across his unmade bed, penetrating me with his fingers violently, his wild, brown eyes looking into mine and him pinning me on his bed while I felt his warm breath on my neck as I begged him not to touch me. I felt numb that night, my tears ran across my face, but I did what I did best ever since I were a a little child, I cried myself to sleep. The thrill of sleeping with him made me feel better about myself. I felt loved. It felt so wrong but I enjoyed the thrill.
I'm now two months pregnant with his baby. I came clean to my fiance and he has now forgiven me and wants to raise the child with me.
I decided to keep the baby because I don't believe in “mistakes”, the baby never hurt anyone, the baby doesn't deserve to be aborted because of my irresponsibility and human race's evil. I mean, when I see him or her, I will think of the man that hurt me but I know that the baby has purpose in this life.
It hurts me so much how I allowed the same guy that hurt me and broke me even more to have my body. To see that part of me. I didn't only strip naked for him but also my soul.
The other thing is, they can orgasm during rape and then their body presumably releases oxytocin which promotes bonding.
Meanwhile other guys are thinking about their love interest, "How do I get this girl to fall in love with me"
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